PC down.

Man, my P4 pc just fell sick today. Sigh. But lucky enough it did so after my course registration, hehe. Anyway, it seems like it's the Power Supply Unit just blew out. Thank god it didn't took any hardware away with it. So, I just decided to get a iCute 450W PSU, though it cause me 95 bucks (he initially recomand me a brandless PSU for 40 bucks only) but it's worth the extra bucks as I wouldn't it to blow out again 12 months later. Who knows, i might run out of luck this time and it fry my motherboard.

Anyway, I was lucky it happend after I finish registering my course this morning. Well, here I still have my good ol' P3 base PC. But it's crawlling speed is just a turn-off for me. But i still use it anyway to blog. Just can't stand using it the whole day, which i didn't.

But one thing good ut of this blow up is well, i decided since it's in the pc shop, i might change the CPU Heat Sink Fan as well, which I plan to do anyway. Hehe, I wouldn't want to have it in the computer shop for a couple of days during the holidays, better had it done now.

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Wow....guess this site's been lack of update. Anyway time to wipe off the dust and clean my closet again.

Well, pass few days been kinda busy with the engineering maths mid term exam. But despite all the hard work (at least by my own standard, that was very taxing =P ) it ain't worth it as it turns out like some, err, ridiculously hard paper I'd say. This paper was a flop. Screwed up big time. Well, shit happens anyway, as if this is the wrost I've been thorugh.

Well, since that Thursday night till today, I've never touch those books. I just relax and gaming the whole day. Ah, no one else to blame if i fail this time around. Anyway that's the effect after a hell week of exam and assignment. Oh yeah, did i mention 2 assignment on that week? No wonder i can't get my ass of my pc and start studying again.

Hmm...let's see what's next. Ah, next monday, time for course registration. I didn't even print out the time table of all offered course. Wonder if my frieds have arrange it. I'll just leech from them if any =D

What a presentation of ours

Finally my presentation is over. But, well, I owe this to a friend of my, morph. He was the one who did the real presentation. His programming skills were god-like.


While me, was the unlucky guy of the day. It started of with a girl being chosent to present, and all of us showed a sigh of relief. Little did we know that it was a false alarm. Anyway, she did her best and it was quite well done, for a normal student I'd say. But when the lecturer put up some real questions, she got stuck. But thankfully our lecturer was kind enough to let morph take over and explain things out. I guess he knew morph was the main, if not only force behind us.


But then to our surprise, he did another random generated number to pick another student. At first it got 6, but for some reason, it was desqualified and he regenerate again, and that fateful click of mouse generated number 8, as lucky as that number may be, it pick the absolutely wrong guy. It's me. I couldn't present a single shit. Again, i was allow to step aside and morph took over, blasting off any question the lecturer can throw at him. He's just so good at it, it was so impressive. Now he had motivated me more to learn C programming during my 2 months break.


I guess we're all lucky to have him in our group. He was the man of the day. Of course, I have to give credit to the other members too how work to their bone to get the report done and also help the group out in any possible way. Thanks to you guys all. I hope we'll get some good marks after all of this.


Looking back at how he was at some other group initially, i guess we're pretty lucky he change to our side. And our group was form as everyone wanted, 5 guys, 5 girls, had a name called PROMETHEUS, and we pawned all the rest hands down at any given day. Yeahhh...


Hey morph, if u'r reading this, thanks alot man, we all owe u one.

Yuu and Ai

A fiction of a love life of Yuu and Ai, i got this from a forum, and it was kinda, er, nice, yeah so i'll just put it up here to share with anyone who might be reading my blog.


Here goes;


Yuu and Ai were classmates. They were very close friends throughout the whole of high school. Till the very day..
Yuu and Ai at the graduation ceremony.


b: Yuu.. I have something to tell you..


a: (Busy adjusting his tie) Ya.. Ai?


b: Let me help. (With trembling hands.. she slowly adjusts his tie)


a: What's wrong Ai? (Looks intensely into Ai's eyes)


b: (Stumbled backwards) No.. no..! Don't look at me like that!


a: (Taken aback) What..what's wrong with you tonight Ai?


b: Er.. No.. no.. Nothing..


a: (Taking Ai's hands into his) You look extremely stunning tonight. (Bending foward and getting closer and closer to Ai's cheeks)


b: ...............................................


a: Haha.. Gotcha!


b: (Flinched) I'm not in the mood of joking with you Yuu.. I.. I've got a matter to tell you.


a: Ya?


b: I'm.. I'm leaving for States to further my studies.. I had no choice.. My dad..


a: (Hugs Ai and whispered into her ears) Nevermind the rest of the story. I understand.


Two weeks later at the airport


b: (Tears welled up in her eyes) It's.. time to say goodbye..


a: Remember to call and email me okay?


b: I will.. I'll be back in three years time.. We shall meet again.


a: Promise?


b: Promise. Same old meeting place, same time, same date. Deal?


a: Deal!


b: Okay.. Let's part for now..


a: Hey.. Erm.. I've got things to tell you..


b: Ya?


a: Erm.. nothing.. (He wanted to express his feelings for Ai but never got the courage.)


b: Oh.. okay.. (Disappointed as she wanted Yuu to tell her that he don't want to just be friends.)


a: Let me leave first. I do not wish to see you leave me. It's hard for me. This is for you. (Yuu handed Ai a expensive pendant and turned away, with quick swift steps, walked away.. out of Ai's sight.)


Yuu never heard from Ai since then. They totally lost contact but Yuu never forgot Ai and was patiently wating for the day of their agreement.


Three years later. At the meeting place. A beautiful beach. It was sunset.


c: Hi.. Are you Yuu?


a: You.. you are?


c: I'm Ai's husband.


a: ...


c: Ai wanted me to hand you this. (The man handed him the pendant and walked away.)


It was the expensive pendant. As Yuu was poor.. It took his entire savings and the money he borrowed from his friends to get it. He did not leave the beach the whole night. He was still hopeful that Ai would turn up and would not break their agreement. When all hopes were gone, he grips the pendant hard in his hands.. Tears which were about to burst, Went straight back to the deepest place in his heart.


Two years later. A day at the cafe Yuu and Ai used to frequent.


Yuu was sipping his coffee when he noticed a girl not far away, having the same coffee as he does. She resembles Ai. He decided to walk over and try his luck.


a: Ai...?


b: (Slowly lifts her head.) Yuu...?


a: Is that realli you Ai??


b: ...


a: (Frowns and slowly fuming) Don't you have anything to say or to explain?!


b: ...


a: (Hot in temper) You did not contact me for the 3 WHOLE YEARS in States! But I don't blame you! I've figured you must be too busy with your studies. I convinced myself to stick to this belief for 3 years!! But when the day of our agreement came, you DID NOT TURN UP! I waited and waited till my hopes were all dead. You are a real disappointement. I can't believe you actually did this to me. Not to say that you are already married and you wasn't the one who told me that. (Turned away and ran out, threw the pendant he had always kept with him for the past two years on the ground)


b: (Sobbing) ..............................................Yuu..... (Picked up the pendant with great difficulty) Yuu.. I'm sorry..


Ai managed to get herself back on her wheelchair and wheeled out of the cafe. She was knocked down by a truck the very day she arrived States. It was a miracle she survived after a month of painful struggle in the hospital.. All alone with no friends nor kins.. All in the hope of seeing Yuu again. But she never knew that she never found the courage to face Yuu again in her handicapped situation. She ended up not contacting Yuu for the 3 years in States and the man the day at the beach was not her husband but her doctor.


NOt long after, she heard news of Yuu getting married with a air stewardess from a friend of theirs. She secretly attended their wedding although Yuu did not invite her.


The girl was beautiful and lucky. Yuu was a good guy. Ai saw her loved man marrying another woman. Her heart aches but she just silently sits at a corner, make herself unknown, and regretted not expressing her feelings for him.


Yuu puts the ring into the girls's finger after saying "I dO". His tears felled. "Ai.. I will always love you."


The story came to an end here. Yuu never loved another besides Ai. He married the girl just because she loved him dearly and she was the girl who saved him when he tried to kill himself the day Ai never turn up at the meeting place.


Moral of the story: Always remember that the traffic flow in US is the opposite of here in Asia. Watch out before you cross the traffic, think of your love ones. Don't let a septic truck hit you in the ass.




Ok, here's the real moral.


Moral of the story:
When u love somebody, it's best if u can find the courage to tell them. Don't waste time and regret it in the end.
There's always be that someone who'll love you for who you are, no matter how imperfect you may be.


PS:Just in case u'r wondering why he can said "Ai..I will always love u" and get away with it, well, my take is that Ai sounds like I, so what others hears is "I...I will always love u". But heck that doesn't matters anyway.

Untilted

It's sunday night. Monday's next.
Oh well, a hell week i'd say. Lotsa assignment due, revision to do.

Anyway, I've just got a new 3 piece speaker yesterday. With a twist of luck, my good old speaker went kaboom. So, i decided to get a 2.1 speaker. Ok, that's nothing to shout about, everyone has a 2.1 speaker, but hey, this is my first and the sound is amazingly much better than before. And yeah, i played many songs from my mp3 collection to enjoy the good quality sound. What a nutcase.

Also, went to cut my hair yesterday, and damn it got too short. Ah anyway, guys should have short hair, nothing to complain about. I like it short anyway. And the movie, ROBOTS, well it's a good movie i'd say. Animation are fantastic, comedy are goos till the end. But oh well, i'll stop here on that, i'm not a professional in movie review, so son't ask me is it worth the bucks, its up to u man.

Well, i guess it's bed time. I hope i'll have some sweetdream tonight, now that lately things hae been pretty harsh.

Hell days ahead again

It's friday night, the end of another week, not long i'd say, but full of problems, stuff, works blah blah blah....a typical week for me i'd say.


Anyway, i'm starting to feel the usual final pressure coming. Not that i've started studying, but my curiosity that makes me printing out the assignmnet question and reading through it makes me fell the pressure already. The pressure of how to complete those crap.


Anyway tomorrow will be a very very busy day for me. Lets see, renew my driving license, cut my hair, watch movies with friends in the evening and level up my maple story game in the night. Ah, this is the right way to keep myself busy, i'd say. But heck my dad will faint upon seeing my petrol bill.


Anyway, by sunday I might be just in my closet playing some games and see if i have the courage to start some revision.


Blog out.

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Once again, blogging from my campus computer lab, how pathatic.
well, anyway, today recive another bad news. I've got another assignment coming my way. man iw as like wtf, as if we don't have enough assignment to drive me 6ft under.

Ah, anyway lately I've been trying to keep myself busy, trying to keep myself occupied all the time. this is to help me to not to think so muuh and just be busy busy busy. I just want to keep all problems out of my mind. But oh, i have to admit that doing assignment wasn't an option to keep myself busy. I'd rather suffer worrying my life away that doing such stuff. I just don't know what i should do now. I'm still somehow too lazy to start my academic work. I just wanna be busy by playing games and sometimes miserably looking sor someone to chat with. Good thing i met a couple of friends online through the forum lowyat.net. Better still, this two guys are, somehow in a way suffering the same problem with me, and so its kinda nice chatting with them, sharring our sorrows and supporting each other. At least i can keep myself ocupied. And also, it shows me that i'm not the only pathetic guy in this world. Everyone somehow or rather will come through this kinda shit, it's just how to face it.

Oh, by the way, lowyat.net is a loca IT forum, initially, but now it has grow to a very large and active forum, and the place we loney people hang out online (ok, not all are lone ranger there). And yes, there's also a community of single guys there. This people, somehow wanted to plan a night out for all single guys. Now if only I can joint them. But hey, don't get me wrong, just because we're all guys, that doesn't mean it's a gay match-making event. Joining them might somehow fill my time up too. Well, i hope i don't begin to sound like a desperado. Just wish to cheer myself up a little i guess, really LOL. Infact, it's ROTFLMAO.

Ciao.

I tried to be perfect....

Now we lost it all
Nothing last forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect


Those line's above are taken from a song by simple plan, titled "perfect". This is a problem i'm going through, a problem everyone have i believe. But oh well, i wonder why mine's showing it's ugly head.


Anyway, i honestly dunno what's the problem with me. Well, maybe i don't understand the people around me, or i'm just un-understandable. Well, i just hope this weekness won't backstab me, but hope is as far as it gets. I guess every weekness will backfires on someone. I just dunno what to do now. Maybe I'll need to take time to understand everyone around me, and thus might be able to avoid hurting others in the future. Afterall, hey, I'm only 19 man, still got a long road ahead of me, there's nothing wrong trying to be a better person now. Ah, i hope I won't be just crapping empty crap here. It's easier said than done.

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Lately, i dunno how i'm feeling. Mix felings maybe? Oh well, forget bout it first. Anyway, these few days, although i can somehow breath easier, there's still alot of things going in my mind. It just keep replaying over and over again, and i know it won't stop till there's a solution to it. Well, amybe I'm just thinking too much anyway. But those thing just can't be left like that though, time doens't fix everything.
Well, maybe luck playes a hand in this too. It's just ironic how the unimaginable thing could just happend in reality. What's the worst that could have happend? I never tought it all would have end up like this. It's such a pathetic thing.
Oh well, guess i'm feeling tired. Will go to be in awhile more. how i wish i could wake up the next morning and find that this is all just a nightmare.

Song list update

Finally I decided to come out with this list of the songs and it's respective artist that's in the player here. Actually I had this idea kinda long ago but it's not till now that I finally did it. Anyway, here's the list. Enjoy.

WELCOME TO MY LIFE - SIMPLE PLAN
SHE WANTS TO BE ME - BUSTED
SLEEPING WITH THE LIGHTS ON - BUSTED
WHO'S DAVID - BUSTED
FIRST CUT IS THE DEEPEST - SHERLY CROW
MY PLACE - NELLY
MY IMMORTAL - EVANESCENCE
SUMMER '79 - THE ATARIS
NOBODY'S FOOL - AVRIL LAVIGNE
DON'T TELL ME - AVRIL LAVIGNE
MY HAPPY ENDING - AVRIL LAVIGNE
PUSHING ME AWAY - LINKIN PARK
LYIN' FROM YOU - LINKIN PARK
FLAVOR OF THE WEEK - AMERICAN HI-FI
SEMI CHARMED LIFE - THIRD EYE BLIND
ALMOST - BOWLING FOR SOUP
ONE YEAR, SIX MONTHS - YELLOWCARD
FAT LIP - SUM 41
MISS YOU IN A HEARTBEAT - DEF LEPPARD
SCARS - PAPA ROACH
JUST LOOSE IT - EMINEM
MOCKINGBIRD - EMINEM
SWING SWING - ALL AMERICAN REJECT

So much for my empty prayers

Each time when i say a prayer, i always hope that my life will go smoothly, and i'll suceed in everything that i do, or any decision that i make. But till today, it doesn't seems like any of it has been granted. Lately, i've been facing lots of obstacles in my life.

Just when i tought that there's better days ahead now that my mid term's over, again i've been hit by a shit again. Damn.

OMG, what can i do now? Sigh. I just wish i can have some room to breath.

Sometimes i wonder if i'm a very sinful guy. Though i use to think that i'm lucky in certain thing, but somehoe my life's never been easy. Anything that i want or do, it's sure to be full of obstacles and i can only achive sucess in some while ohers just failed along the way. Many times i had curse my luck, asking why does this all happens to me. Man, how i wish i could just put this out of my head and don't wanna think anything about it. It's just so sad that my life's full of this kind of problems. Even sadder is that my mood here is always a sad tone.