Over My Head

Just some random thoughts....

I think I'm real scared about my well, hopefully final year, with the FYP and so many other stuff. I'm afraid my FYP is going to be my downfall this time. To say that I'm lost even before its started would be an understatement.

Don't know what to do, don't what what will comes, and it would suck if I finds a topic that I really could do only to finds out that since my cgpa doesn't exactly register in the lecturer's qualified list, I'd probably have to settle for some rubbish stuff and make everything worse for me.

Its like a domino effect, one fall and everything else tumbles along with no way of stopping it.

Sometimes I really envy those who seems to have their friends, or anyone with them all the time going through all this stuff.

I guess it just scares me, that this time, I'm totally on my own in this, A to Z. No group assignment, no individual assignment that I can "duplicate" from anyone who's kind enough to save this kid in distress. And my biggest problem is I don't know where to start, where's A? And by the time I know, its probably too late. It always is...

Just wanted to get that out. My head feels like its going to cave in.

Fortune always favors those lucky ones, or better ones, don't they. The lesser one is left to play the role of making the better ones look good.
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Uhh... I'm retarded right now. Clear my mind and maybe get some sleep.

*Sigh*

So there ends the one week holiday. The holiday that I didn't even knew it started. The one where I forgotten, heck I forgotten so many things

And the only thing that I haven't forgotten though, is being an idiot, as per usual. Next week I have at least one paper coming up, and every time when comes the time for me to hit the notes, I do this to myself. I bet everyone else has started studying by now, and here I am sulking up.

I wonder if I'm going to trash this entire semester.

Good thing I have this wonderful collection of songs. It keeps my head from exploding

Nights like this...

I could only wish I was dreaming

Ah well, its been too long since I've been here, the place I comes to when I'm having one of those days. That figures, since this semester has been going way too well for me, or at least I think so, that I've been pretty lucky. Something had to go wrong right? Given the pathetic track record of my life, why would I expect anything less, heh.

Well, my blog just so miss me I had to come here sooner or later.

But I'm trying my best to keep myself compose. Whatever happened (or what not).

I'm so retarded...