Its all about ways of interpreting

Reading from someone else' blog, I realize that a problem that could potentially come out of blogging, is being misunderstood by others. Or, its sorta like giving a different (usually negetive) impression of that blogger to others who reads. And yeah, this problem could arise even with people who knows the blogger in real life, which is, well...unfortunate.

I won't be surprise too that those who does read my blogs think that I'm a cold, bitter, bitcher person. Oh well, what can I say. Maybe I am? XD

But that's just one thing. Getting the wrong message across could be a problem as well, causing misunderstanding and stuff. Yeah, misunderstanding is the key here, and it comes from misinterpretion.

But to think about it, it ain't avoidable no matter what. Different ppl have different thinking and thus different way of seeing something, or interpreting it. When i blog, i present my view in a way I see it to be, in a way that I can interprete it. And I'd say most, if not everyone, would see a certain matter differently, and so getting the wrong idea out of someone's journal. But no one's to blame for it. It's just a fact of life.

It's hard when people misunderstood me for worst, much harder for me to shunt away from expressing my thoughs and keep it all inside me.

Finals? What finals...

My final exams are just a few days away, yet somehow I'm studying as if I have a month or what? As always, I never had enough time to be fully prepared. And all that I've done was unguided, with many questions marks hanging everywhere. Well, I guess its logical that studying by myself isn't all a brilliant idea. If I can, I could've been a lecturer. Oh man, wish I had a tutor beside me guiding me, makin life much easier.

Anyway, I'm a little wear off by this nevertheless. I'm kinda blur, lack of awareness, don't know what I'm doing all the time. I'm so blur that I might find myself talking crap at times. So blur that I actually downloaded a 90's pop song and find myself playing it so oftent. (It's Lemon Tree by Fool's Garden btw). OMG....

I need rest. Lots of it. Now where did I place my pills....

The dust has settled

Today was, by my defination at the very least, the last day of any academic activity. The presentation of the project that my group had spend so much time in (and had fun along the way ^,^ ) has finally been done, nothing dramatic as compare to past presentation as this was relatively easy, coz there were absolutely no explaination on the program codes. But nevertheless, I had to say that it was mainly due to our group leader, who's also our big time programmer, that this project was possible.

Speaking of which, all that's left of this semester is the finals exam, which I'm totaly not prepared for, and I never will, as it's pretty apparent there isn't enough time left. All I can do is to salvage what I can. There isn't much to look foward anyway. I just hope the exam will pass soon.

Oh well, I actually doubt if anyone of them still reads my blogs, but here goes my thanks giving message anyway...*ROFL*...ahem...

Ok seriously, I just wanna thank Mr. Gan, our long time programmer, an also all the other group member as well...for the marks that I'll be getting out of this project, obviously....boy, that was short.

And erm...well, guess next sem I won't be seeing most of them, all but one. Either we hardly have any same classes or none at all. I do hope I'll still be able to meet them anyway...

Putting the rainy days behind me, all that I can say now is that, I appreciate all the better times that we've had, thanks for all of that. And I'm sorry for all the mistake that I've done.
....... I wish I still had the chance...
I guess only time will tell....

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

-Green Day

God Must've Hate Me

W-H-A-T-I-S-W-R-O-N-G-W-I-T-H-M-E
I'm out of time, and now I'm out of line and luck.
My feelings screwed it up.
I'm so sorry

One Year Six Months Gone

This time around, I guess I've been caught off-guard again by time. Little did I knew that by next semester, we'll be all taking some difference course base on different majoring. It really caught me by surprise. I was somehow still a little hanging in the middle on what majoring I should actually take, trying to figure out if the major of my choice is the right one. And now, time's up.

That aside, this might be the first time I'm attempting to arrange my own timetable, or timeslot for the subjects taken next semester. Yes, first time after 2 years. In the past, I'll usually get a well arranged time slot from my friend and just register as planned, as me and my friends take the same time slot for the obvious reason. But now, as for next sem, we'll have 1 different subject and another the same. And there's only one person taking the same course as me whom is a one of my close friend. Thankfully there was one, unfortunetly I won't be attending the same class with the rest of them. Though I still hope we'll all be in the same lecture group for that subject which are common for all majoring.

Oh t3h horror of arranging timetable...so complicated that I find it harder than solving a maths question...so difficult that I'll ask my friend and see if he actually arranged it yet. Heh.

Hmm....time just passed so fast. The first day of my faculty years is still very fresh in my mind, I can still remember the first person I knew that I saw on that first lecture. And now, one year six months has gone. It went all too fast.

Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So I will not forget, I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget, I cannot forget
-Yellowcard

Another ditch in the road
I keep moving
Another stop sign
I keep moving on
And the year go by so fast
Silent fortress build to last
Wonder how I ever made it through

Time just passed so fast as I watch it slip pass me, while trying to capture those moment in still frames. That was as much as I could do, time was never on my side.

Wandering star...lost and fading...

Once again, i wandered into my very own blog. I really didn't have much time to update here, not that i have any nice stuff anyway. Been busy with assignments, in which i must say I learned alot. Not a good thing to do, as I should be doing at this stage, not learning.

Time flies, this sem just flew by so quickly, i cant cope. yeah, i failed to keep up with it. And i also realize all the changes around me. It was all to hard to swallow. And so after all of this, all that's left are still frames in my mind. Pictures, some to cherish and thankful for that after all this while, I never thought i would come to it, though it didn't last either. And many which, I guess I had to learn from it, and somewhat regrets it from time to time. But the how oftent I can learn something the easy way. It does makes me wonder sometimes. Had I been able to go back in time, with all this things that i've learned, will I be able to actually change things for the better?

Anyway, I guess once again, the suffering period is here. I'm gonna suffer as always. Only difference is that I've been through it many times, and it'll be over in a very short time. Still, this short time will be very suffering, heh. Damn exams.

ZOMGWTFHOWCOULDTHISHAPPEN

Today my car's transmission failed, and i can't engage 1st and 2nd gear. Screw it. Don't feel like talking too much to my monitor. Just hate the fact that my bad luck runs keep continue like a sick cycle carousel. Now I think i begin to fear it, even. Everyday I hope and pray that I will run out of bad luck, as I've lost enough in my life.

I might as well sleep early tonight. =_=

My mind is kinda blank right now. Been doing some assigment these few days, more oftent than never I'll be tired by the end of the day. I cant say that the assignment stress me out as I was idle most of the time anyway. this is the beauty of group assignment XD. Once done, the finals exam will be just around the corner.

Sigh. Once again i'll be counting days till the end of the sem. I'm just craving for some peace of mind. Don't really miss my luck all that much anyway.