Saturated

Hmm, so I realize that lately thar's nothing much to blog anymore, and this could only due to 2 reason, that I'm just too lazy to think of anything smart to blog, and that there's nothing out of routine that happens in my life.

It sure felt strange, but I think that after all this year, my life has hit a saturation point, it's sort of like a routine everyday, nothing new. It's like, everyday every morning when I wakes up, I dont look foward to anything. There's only one thing that I have in mind, that is to finish my degree program. Yeah, just let the days goes by, waiting for the exam pressure to kick in, study, get over with the exam, take a break, and a new semester comes in and everything back to the same routine, over and over again.

But hey, I'm not complaining about this =) In a way, I like it. I mean, it's like no worries, no heart ache. Well, probably due to all the beautiful let down, I cease to be adventureous these days. Some things in life, if it isnt mutual, there's no amount of tries can ever turn that around. And yeah, I always read all the wrong signal =)

Well, that's about it. I guess I'll be waiting till the day I life will take another change, another turn. I still keep the faith, not worry about it, but just keep the faith.

Life's a Miracle...

This following script was taken from a comic strip titled Calvin and Hobbes.

Calvin: Look, a dead bird.
Hobbes: It must've hit the window.
Calvin: Isn't it beautiful? It's so delicate.
Calvin: Sighhh... Once it's too late, you appreciate what a miracle life is.
Calvin: You realize that nature is ruthless and our existence is very fragile, temporary and precious.
Calvin: But to go on with your daily affairs, you can't really think about it.
Calvin: Which is prbably why everyone takes the world for granted and why we act so thoughtlessly.
Calvin: It's very confusing
Calvin: I suppose it'll all make sense when we grow up.
Hobbes: No doubt.

Ah well, I love taking some time off reading these amusing comic sometimes to just lighten my day. But one thing good about this Calvin and Hobbes comic is sometimes it does have some serious thoughs that are pretty much reflective of our daily life.

One line that got my attention there is that how oftent we don't realize what a miracle life was until it's too late. Everyday we just repeat our same daily routine, day in day out the same hectic life. And before I know it, it's been 3 years since I've started my uni life, and to think about it, there was so much that I've miss, all the things left undone. But well this is life. No one could have told us what the future brings, we just did what we thinks was the best, and there was no looking bad. Sometimes it's just too bad some things doesn't work out, but for every tries that I did, there was not a single one I would regret, nor did I find it a waste of time.

When I was a kid, i never liked my schooling days, always looking foward to long holidays, just letting the days goes by. Ah well, I was young and silly, thinking it would last forever and in the blink of an eye, those schooling days were all but yesterday. And here I am, 3 years away from the rat race. Sometimes it still amaze me how 21 years just went by like that, hah.

Man I really need to do more beneficial things in my life...

Turning Over A New Leaf

All along I spend too much time
Standing on the sideline
Waiting for the storm to pass
Keeping my heads down
Silence is golden
Or so I though

But those were the days
Now I've come to learn
Every cloud has a silver lining
Some things are destinied to be
Others aren't meant to be

Now I'm learning how to dance in the rain
And the best part of all

I'll never let my ego and pride get the better of me
Ever.... again

These are my thoughts written down on paper
These are my past mistakes I'll stay away from
These are my only savior
From not saying what I want to say
These are the thoughts that are on my mind
Moments that haven't yet been defined
And I don't know if anyone could ever understant
These are the things I can't say out loud

*cough* *cough*
Sudah makan melampau banyak durian. Celaka betul. Tekak banyak menderita. Mungkin ku telah buat salah sekali lagi, ceh.
*cough*

It's the god damn throat I tell ya....dammit

Ok so I had these one of my most favourite fruit the other day, and the next day I felt like my entire immune system was crushed. I'm feeling better now, but the cough still won't go away. Well, its not like I've taken one too many, but...

My voice doesn't sound right at all as well. No, I'm not singing anything anywhere, but talking isn't nice at all. It felt like my voice box has been blocked up. Ok I know, some might say hey, its not like it makes any different...meh

Ah, that pretty much sums up a very sucky week i had, dragging from last week till now. What's next that will go wrong? Streamyx exchange point in my area get bombed? Have someone hack my IM account again? Or being manipulated again? Ah well, I guess this month just isn't good for me. No, I dont believe in zodiac or think that my fate is being affected by stars that are lightyears away. It just amaze me how sometimes when one thing goes wrong, everything goes wrong.

Whoa, its been so long since I've posted here. Not that I dont have the time, but it's just lack of anything usefull to say here. And whenever I do, I just cant log in at blogger.com. Damn its been so so slow and laggy of late.

Anyway 2 weeks had already pass since this semester started. Nothing special, just another typical semester. Lady luck didnt put her charmed on me either. Instead, I had my labotary session started last week. As always, I'm always one of the earlier group to do so, no matter how they sort the grouping.

Apart from that, well, I'm still trying to tune myself out of holiday mode into academic mode. Manage to reduce the hours spent on online gaming, but still, I find myself doing some other thing but academic stuff. Its so easy to tune out of something that I doesn't like, and to tune into something that I like. The hardest part is to let go something u've wanted so much, despite knowing all odds are agains you.

On a more positive note, I've just newly found a rock band (aren't punk, but arent pop rock either) called New Found Glory (no pun intended). Though it was a bunch of discography (a set of all of their albums), and one album that was most impressive was "Stick and Stones". One of the best thing about them, are of course their lyrics.

Uh, I'll just stop here for now. I stayed up for he Formula 1 race day. Good luck to the Ferrari boys.