If you ever find a way to forgive me
If I ever find a way to put all my mistakes to rest



I wish I could explain why I keep making all these mistakes. I wish there was a way that I could make this all up to you. I can't give you a reason now, but I still hope that someday you will be able to find it in you to forgive me for everything. No matter how far off it is at the moment, I hope that all hatered and resentment could be put aside and everything could be forgiven, someday...

Beyond Empty

If I could I would
Take back all my mistakes

If only I knew how
To be the friend you need
To be the person you want

I never knew how to be a good guy
I never had the chance to experience
A true social life
That is normal like yours
And everyone else

No one handed me a roadmap for this road less traveled
I could only get on and drive blindly
And hope that I could get things right

I do not want to learn from the mistake I did with you
I never intended for our friendship to be a casualty
Of the mistakes I was bound to make

I wish I already knew everything
To make these mistakes with someone else
Maybe then I could have that perfect friendship with you
That’s now just a 10 cent dream of mine

I'm still learning everyday
And longing for your forgiveness someday

What went wrong...

I'm sorry that I'm too retarded to realize the mistakes that I make

Despite my best efford to be a better person, a better friend, a better man. I just wish I knew all these stuff like every normal person do.

But I'm not normal, I don't measure up to that standard, and I guess thats why I'm always the guy who admire others being something I could never be. All those people who meant a lot...

Sometimes I think they are lucky. But maybe I'm just too retarded to be...