Wishing off time

While I was taking my lunch in campus, the piece of chicken meat i was eating came off with a piece of bone, that looks like a V shape. Well, I remember my dad once told me such bone are a "wishing bone". I LOL but it cross my mind to make a wish, perhaps i'd like to put an end to my solitude. Then i again, I'd very much like to break it apart and throw it off as far as I could. Hmm, i do like throwing stones whenever I have the chance, its really fun, just swing as hard as i could and toss it off away. It helps in releasing all the strains and anger in me as well.

But anyway, being a in a crowded place where ppl are starting as if eating alone is a crime (perhaps it is?), the last thing u wanna do is to do another stupid thing that will perhaps set off a series of mocking assault.

And oh, I hate making wishes. They never comes true and instead keem my hopes high, which makes the impact stronger when it goes crushing down.

Blind

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

-Lifehouse

Finally this song became their second single off their latest, self titled album. When i first heard this song from that album, i knew it was a much better song than their first single. Anyway, its been awhile since i've heard any new, nice slow rock ballad. This has to be the best song i've heard to date.

In a way, I'm glad this song make it into a single, unlike from the previous album, where there was a song, slow ballad like this, which was titled Breathing, didn't became the next single from that album after Sick Cycle Carousel.

Promises

Thanks to a user at lowyat.net for pointing me in the right direction, finally i've found the very song that i wanted all this while, the Silent Hill 2 OST (Original Sound Track) which was use in the E3 demo. And I thought of putting up as the background track in my blog. Heck i even had it converted to .asf file, the very format needed for online streaming.

But the only problem now is, where to find a site that host streaming audio files for free. This site, according to Uncle Google, is very rare, and mostly are for professionals with monthly fees.

Now this is the good news for those buggers advertiser who likes to spam my blog with lots of advert which god knows how it was associate to my blog. (Tiles, gardening, u name it) Now if u wanna advertise a site that can help me out, do so. Anything other than that, u'r spam is still gonna be deleted, as always. ^_^

Life is like a god dammed roller coaster ride. For one moment it takes u way high up, then it brings u diving down faster than gravity could, and before u could say 'oh shit' u're already at the bottom. Whats worst, we have no control over it...

Sometimes i felt that my life is like a woken dream, only to find out next its nothing short of a woken nightmare. I don't know which is real now. I don't know what to believe...

The downside of long holidays

I feel like shit right now. And its only 2 days into this semester.
Well I guess the long breaks makes me rusty, and now, oh well... Damn if I ever gets ill before my exam.
Man yesterday was a little tiring, but it was all ok after some rest. Today, I could hardly make any sense out of what the lecturer's chanting infront. I'm like a walking zombie by now. Erm, wait, does it makes any difference?

Another Girl, Another Planet

Another Album, Another Great Song
Blink 182 had just recently release a Greatest Hit album, which contains songs from the early days such as Dammit to the last, self-titled album singles such as I Miss You. And of course, just like any other Greatest Hit album, this one comes with 2 previously unrelease songs, Not Now and Another Girl, Another Planet. Now first of all, listening to this album, somehow gives a picture of how these boys have mature into, well, mature adults as the songs are arranged from the oldest till the newest song. Songs like Dammit and Carousel reminds us of how they use to sing songs about growing up.

Anyway, the best song from this release has to be the extra track of course, Another Girl, Another Planet. Its a pretty simple song with a catchy tune. Any fan of Blink 182 sould never miss this single. Get it at all cost, by any means XD

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Another Girl, Another Planet

I Always flirt with death
I could kill, but I don't care about it
I can face your threats
Stand up tall and scream and shout about it

I think I'm on another world with you (with you)
I'm on another planet with you (with you)

You always get under my skin
I don't find it irritating
You always play to win
I don't need rehabilitating

I think I'm on another world with you
I'm on another planet with you

Another girl, another planet
Another girl, another planet

Space travel's in my blood
And there ain't nothing I can do about it
Long journeys wear me out
Oh god, you know we won't live without it

I think I'm on another world with you
I'm on another planet with you
I think I'm on another world with you
I'm on another planet with you

Another girl is loving you now
Another planet, forever holding you down
Another planet




I think it's been an amazing trip here, but I think we're gonna be one of those band's thats around forever and always makes records even if nobody's buying them and being used for toilet paper, but we'll still make them because we'll be the best fuckin' toilet paper anybody ever used. - Tom, Blink 182 (The Urethra Chronicles 2 documentry)

New semester kicks off with new resolution. One thats no different from any new year resolution, which oftent is nothing more than a blueprint, a fantasy if u will.
Somehow I always finds myself still the same.
I'm still the very same person I am 6 months ago.
My feelings are still the same like it was 1 year ago
I realize I couldn't move on.

My mind is sore. I can't even think inside my head.

Well, nobody said its gonna be easy... and it ain't.

I don't know what happened, but for the pass few days, studying has taken its toll on me. Now i'm feelin' kinda miserable, literally. Guess its never fun... whoever said studying is fun.

Oh well, perhaps its due to my headache? (Either that or its giving me the headache). And right now I just feel like I'm gonna fall ill any time soon. Sigh...

This week is gonna be the longest, hardest week. No, next week as well. It'll be a very frustrating week... Damn. My hands are all tied up, hardly any room to breath.... I need a break..

Speaking of break, Civ 4 has finally been install. Heh

Should I go back?

Song: Asthenia
Artist: Blink 182

Last night it came as a picture
With a good reason, a warning sign
This place is void of all passion
If you can imagine it's easy if you try
Believe me I failed this effort
I wrote a reminder this wasn't a vision
This time where are you Houston
Is somebody out there will somebody listen

Should I go back should I go back should I
I feel alone and tired
Should I go back should I go back should I
I hope I won't forget you

My head is made up of memories
Most of them useless delusions
This room is bored of rehearsal
And sick of the boundaries
I miss you so much

Should I go back should I go back should I
I feel alone and tired
Should I go back should I go back should I
This time I don't want to
Should I go back should I go back should I
I feel alone and tired
Should I go back should I go back should I
I hope I won't forget you


Meaning of the song by the writter
Tom Delonge (Blink 182 guitarist, vocalist): "This song is about one thing only, an astronaut sitting in a space capsule about the size of a car, floating above the earth. He's contemplating if even coming back or not will make a difference on such a negative place. A song about the loss of hope. A term was coined for the breakdown of life in space and it is called Asthenia, the name of the track. At the beginning of the song are actual NASA transmissions."
-Taken from songfacts.com

The lyrics there is pretty imaginative, and yet somewhat meaningful. Its about what the world has become today and it isn't really somewhere we could call home, that it doesn't makes any difference if we stayed here or not. But thats just the direct implication from the lyrics. The implication is pretty wide. One way I'd like to see it as is that sometimes in life, there are things that we know is bad, but we still had to do it coz if we don't we're still at lost in the other way around. And oh, it reminds me of loneliness as well.

Man its been so long since i've got any crap to post up here. Life's pretty routine, and it won't be long till sem reopens....hooorayy...zzzz...lame.

Meh...what should i post...what should I post.....