The needle on this record player has been wearing thing
This sucker has been playing since the day I'm addicted to this songs
No more long nights and no more of my station
I didn't want it anyway

Have I waited too long
Have I found that something

Maybe it's for the best
Maybe its not for anything

How many times I've tried
Blantent mistake of my design

I've had so many chances
Turn my back and I ran away
I've had so many chances
To see you...

Just A Thought

In life, since the day we're born, we get 5 years of carefree, problems free, aimlessly do things that only please us, amuse us.

Then at the age of 5, pre school years starts, which goes on and on, till the day we finish high school, enroll ourself in college or university. All in all, we spend the next 18 years learning stuff where 90% were done unwillingly, but just for the sake of getting a paper printing that we've passed all memory test, making ourself an attractive choice for those cynical coprerate out there looking for the young, exam oriented and underpaid fresh grads. Anyway, yeah, 18 years in academic life.

Then once grad, we spend our entire life dedicated to the rat race, all just to keep food on the table for our wive and children, and an shelter above them. And we'll then get so sick and tired of it that we'll be counting days till retirement and our children finally going out there, leading a life better than what we could offered them, and be glad that our resposibiliy is finally over. And well, waiting for the day we die, heh heh.

Well, I guess we're lucky we do not see, nor understands this during our first five years, else I'm pretty sure we'd all be sort of alarmed by growing up. The moment we step into preschool, there's no looking back anymore, it is such a long long road, decades after decades, before we can finally retire and call it a day bearing all the resposibility. That is if we can live that long.

Sometimes it feels that growing up just isnt what it's all cracked up to be. I watch my dad everyday being the man of the family, and I always though how wonderful it is to be a dad. And I've always thought when I grow up, I will be like him, earning money, affording a house, cars, my toys. But now that I'm old enough to understand all this things, it sometimes scares me that I will have to be an adult one day. I mean, an independent(technically) man, being a dad, the family breadwinner. Suddenly I saw all the responsibility closing in on me, all which will one day sits on my shoulder. Ah well, that's life anyway. The world is always a better place when we're young. As we gets older, it gets uglier.

Happily Sad

I may be a little awkward, yeah, but music has so much more influency in my life than any other form of media, that at good or bad times, i rely to music to sort of express off some of my feelings, in a way or another. I does this by relating my situation to a song.

Now recently I found that when it comes to song that brings a less cheerful or in other words, sad meanings, doesnt always have to be some slow slappy songs. Ok, admitably, lately i'm a little crazy over New Found Glory band, many of their song's just hits close to home. Now they aren't exactly punk rock, nor the word emo has a place in their's genre. They are more like a pop rock, or pop punk if you will (actually i couldnt care less about genre). So that makes most of their songs easy going, pop and rock like.

One particular song was Dressed To Kill. Lyrically, it brings a sad meaning, but the song itself, is a fast tempo, sort of "cheerful" musically, not lyrically but musically. So, this combination sort of makes this song different from the other emo songs.

Actually, the significance of it is that, i love to listent to it after a bad day as lyrically, i can relate to it which makes it a song that has true impact on me, or sort of "have feel" (unlike all current mainstreem songs that has meaningless lyrics), but at the same time, it doesnt further throws me into depression as the song has this fast pace "happy" tempo in it. So what I get is a song that I can relate too and at the same time, it cheers me up =)

Anyway, back to that song Dressed To Kill, they have a acoustic version, which is pretty easy to play on the guitar actually as it all involves power chords. Any experience guitar player will get it without a single problem. And yeah, with my father's old six string, everyday I play those few simple power chords and try to sing along. Really, I hope I can play this song well, lol. Might be the only song I can ever play, with my sucky guitar playing that goes nowhere after so long.