Regretfully Ever After

The year is coming to a close.

Come next year, things will be very different. Right off the bat, I'll be starting my first job. One that will be better than I hope for, I think, maybe. Somethings were better than I hope for. Unfortunately, others were less so.

Such has always been the story of my life. When things are starting to look up, the other shoe will eventually fall.

I'd be miserable if I was happy.

*sigh*

I wished things could have been different. Looking back at all those years, I realized how lucky I was to have had that opportunity to have such a person in my life. Things like this don't happen to a person like myself all the time.

Had it been anyone else in my shoe, they would have gotten a different conclusion. I think this was the part that hurt the most. It's the part that will always hurt the most...

To know that I wasn't a victim of circumstances.
I was a victim of my own mistake, and my own inaction.

I wished I could just go back, and do it all over again.

It'll be a new year, and I'm already feeling lost...

Life is desperate.
Life is chances you'll never get back.