I'm like a bad engineer from the 19th century who repeatedly tried to build a bridge across an ever larger distance and fails all the time. With his outdated tools and method, it's like tying to build the Taj Mahal with sticks and straws.

I wish I knew how to do this right like all the other people out there who are all special and great in their own way. None of them are this boring emotionally retarded guy who acts like a boring clown.

I guess most of all, its just comes naturally to all of them from the beginning, while I kept struggling trying to be someone who's worth a little something at the least. I failed at being that kind of friend you need, I failed to be worth anything, and I failed to get it right from the beginning. Hence I guess I failed to be more than who I am right now.


Wish I knew how to be good enough for you