Random thoughts

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How many times have I said a question/statement only to regret it later, like damn I shouldn't have said that, now I look like an idiot. My thoughts are sometimes faster than my brain =(

There are many things that I don't understand, I guess I have to try to stay positive.

I finally manage to download two albums of Michael Learns To Rock, Played on Pepper and Nothing To Lose. Big fan of them when I was a kid, had their record in cassette format. Guess it will be practically legal for me to own this copy of mp3s then, heh. Love all their upbeat pop rock songs.

I never trusted in miracles
I never looked in the stars
But when I see an angel on earth
That makes my heart thinks
I believe in anything

cos there's magic in the way you walk
something special in the way you talk
this is real this is true
I've got the faith in you

No mood to do any revision now. Exam in a couple more days.

Here comes the mid term season. Just had a paper last week, and I must say, it's just so strange on that day. I don't know, its so demotivating (or just me demotivated, well there's a difference) everything including the exam venue itself. I'd rather taking exam sitting around people that I know or at least seen before, not a bunch of strangers who seems as if they're there for a picnic rather than attempting an all important paper. But I guess given the tough circumstances, I couldn't have done it any better than I already did, though I felt I did it badly, fall short of what I expected.

One thing for sure though, I'm so tired and phobia of spending overtime in campus, I've had like countless of extra classes that is carried out during the night, with more to come. Whats more, this week, one exam and one briefing, as far as I know for now. And yeah, I'm gonna screw this coming paper up, it's inevitable. It's nothing like what I've seen before. This is the one and only paper I'm totally helpless, with no idea whatsoever on how to handle it.

Say, I've always been helpless anyway.

Things I'll Never Say

If I were to be an miserable idiot, I think I'd rather be a self-aware idiot. This way I can tell what am I doing wrong, and least I could do is to avoid it in the future. But I don't, and I'm always blindfolded standing in the dark. I guess, it just kills me to think that I always pull us down when it a new high, and I just... ugh, the feeling's just terrible, horrible, sordid, ludicrous. Gosh...

Well, I keep on looking for ways to overcome this, but to be honest, I'm hopelessly lost at how to comprehend this weakness of mine.

I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it, yeah.

But I'm still an idiot...

Just my luck...

It always had to malfunction when it mattered the most.

Some punishment just don't fit the crime.

Reminiscence Doesn't Need ASCII

Well, what a week this has been man, I don't know what to say. I just wanna summarize it, no long craps. It's sort of down up down kind of thing I guess.

The week started with some pathetic attempt to prepare for my mid term exam on Tuesday night and uh, it was tough, very tough. Though somewhat I think my friends found it easy, or kinda OK some sort, well I certainly am missing something. Not a good day all in all.

Wednesday was kinda of a tiring day, long hours spent in class. But it was a good day, great one actually. Um, maybe it's just me, but like they say that sometimes, some part of life is as good as the memories we make. It felt like the longest hours of the perpetually tiring day in campus. OK it's just me, but it's something that I guess is tattooed in my head now. I don't even need to leave any details here to remember it.

Then this Alice In Wonderland thing turned to reality again, Thursday wasn't entirely a nice day, I completely miss a tutorial replacement session and not realize about it until Friday morning when another lecturer sent everyone an email explaining stuff and made a mention of replacement class of some other subject and I go Holy Shit, I just miss a replacement class!!! Friday, ugh, I don't even wanna think about it.

So there, a good summary of my week. Good I say? Not even a single details. Well, its simple cause no one wants to remember all these disastrous calamity, sordid thing and so do I, keep the good ones and forget the forgettable ones.

Even if its just me, if it just... well, I wouldn't trade it for anything else. And I don't need a bunch of ASCII character here just to remind me.

Anyway, that's all for this week. Didn't ended good at all though I did watch American Idol Season 6 a moment ago and have some good laugh besides being blown away by the superb performance of these vocalist. Now I just wanna sleep on it.