Things are going pretty bad for me.
-Can't handle maths these days, I'll flop this paper for sure.
-Totally miss 2 lab session, and now I need a solid reason to replace those session.
-Everything's in a mess.

The damn mid term exam is just way too early I wonder if the lecturers up there has lost all their sense of time. Its sick.

Anyway, that aside, the exam is on the 1st, and for a moment ago, I was thinking about 1st Feb, only to then realize its March. Hey, it's already March. My parents use to say time flies and we're getting older by the day when I was a kid. Guess I know what they mean now.

Anyway, I need some help this time. While struggling to get through this, I somewhat silently say a prayer.

As time flew by so fast
I look back at all the missed opportunity not taken
And all the wrong step that I've took
Sometimes I still regret it
Wishing I could right the wrongs
And miss those better moments
I never thought it'd end this way
But its something I have no control over
And I guess that's what destiny is
Still I'm sorry about it
And I miss you more
Yes its you

You'll Be Sorry When I'm Gone

Today, one year ago, was the day Blink 182 annouce their indefinite hiatus.

To keep things short, I just love all their music, be it humor stuff such as What's My Age Again or the heavily emo What Went Wrong. There's just many songs that, in a way or another, I could relate it to me. And What Went Wrong will be the first accoustic song I'd ever wants to learn to play.

Anyway, as some fans around the world are keeping their fingers crossed, as for the time being, there isn't seems to be any indication that says they might be coming back together one day, though Tom once said that they are still bounded by recording agreements and so one day, he and Mark will have to come back into talking terms again. But to be honest, I don't really think that'll happened again.

Sometimes when things change, it just change for good and there's no way it'll ever be the same again, at least not like before, no matter how huge a contract those guys are still on.

I wish them all the best.

Rusted

Hmm...lately, no since sometime ago, very long time indeed, i stop posting thoughts here. I don't know, it's just like my mind's too lazy to think of anything. So instead, i just throw in a couple of updates on what had happend around me (which literally nothing much actually) and uh, i call that blogging, lol.

But uh, i don't know, maybe I'm too occupied by other stuff. Coz anyway, lately i've been very worried about this semester, i don't know why, its just that... I'm afraid I'm gonna screw up big time again.

Uh, nothing much happened this weekend anyway. Just went to cut my hair at the usual saloon I've been going to for more than 5 years to date, and find out that end of this month, that owner (my dad knows him personally) is endng his buisness here and going to Kuala Lumpur for a better opportunity. Oh well, now I have to look for a new shop to go. Guess its hard these days to earn a living in this small little town.

It's hard to wake up
When the shades have been pulled shut
This place is haunted, its so pathetic
It makes no sense at all

I'm ripe with things to say
The words rot and fall away
If a stupid poem could fix this
I'd read it everyday

The anger hurts my ear
Been walking this line for so long
Rather than fix the problem, I never solve them
It makes no sense at all

I watch peoples everyday
Their lives flows along so why can't mine
If this is what I wanted, and it's what I needed
Then why there's so much pain

Bits and Pieces of Updates...This is gonna be long (?)

Whats going on?
Finally I've got sometime to spam here.

Going into the second week of the semester, some things begins to settle down, others still lingers with a huge question mark.

Last sunday, went to a historical street with no history called Jonker. Watch some lion dance and stuff. Pretty pack there. But anyway guess it was fun.

Monday, was assinged to a tutor that kinda have a bad reputation among students, but I dunno... I guess I just holds no grudge agains any lecturer. I gave him the benefit of the doubt. Anyway, there isn't much that I can do.

My hands are pretty tied up with the assingments. Its just the second week, but we'll be conduction our first meeting this week, not knowing how many members we'll end up with. Things turned out harder that I thought it would. I thought it would be easy to find groups members, but well... I guess I should've known better, that everyone has their own group of friends, just enough to form their own group if not more than enough. I mean c'mon I went through that before, being in a group where I just knew everyone. Now being in a group full of strangers, I had to ponder on how'd we all work together, and get this shit worked out. God damn group assingment!

How ironic I should mention this
Hmm... I thoughted it'll come and go without me notice-ing it, but damn today's valentine's day. But what happens to those without a valentine? Life goes on, lol. Funny I should mention this here, but uh... well, first of all, my friend message me asking me any suggestion for celebrating valentine in this sleepy hollow town. I'm sorry I couldn't help out, but I think everyone knows that I'm as lame as guy can be, with no impressive ideas. Hell I can't even help acting like a boring stump. Well, I never did change though I tried (this, I guess, people will have to take my word for it), unfortunetly.

Anyway, sunday was suppose to be celebrating the singles. Tradition had it that single girls will throw mandrin orange into the river in hopes of clogging it, no, in hopes of finding a husband. How the details goes about is beyond me.

Well, I guess thats all for now. I shoudn't crap too much.

I'm sorry for who I am
I wish I could change

Harder and harder to breath

What a bad kick off to this sem. I'm just soo stress out, and its just the first week for god sake.

Just as if I hadn't had my hands full going into this week, my computer went down with corrupted boot file or for whatever reason it just won't boot up. So with hardly any time to back up all my files, I just reformat the whole HDD loosing all 60+ gigs of data. I won't wanna go through the details of all the problems i face trying to reinstall Windows XP (Damn these unbootable cd).

And when I though I have time to start finishing all the academic related stuff that have to be done this week, the newly install Operating System yields another shit load of problems. None of my P2P software works and I'm stranded with no Microsoft Office software, and I could hardly open any notes that i've downloaded either in .doc or .ppt format. My notes are all 1 weeks behind time and I'm still trying here to get all essential software to be installed. Guess I can just forget about recovering all that gigs of data that i've losted. Damn!

Sigh. It just pissed me off to see each time my P2P software attempts to download something, my internet connection just gets cuts off. The hell is wrong with it?

At depressing times like this, I oftent listent to certain song just to make me feel better, but now those song are gone and I can hardly download any of em back. Meh, how bad can this be? The only song that was saved was the one my friend send to me through e-mail, and I just redownload from there, lolz ^^.

I'm always walking the line, day by day closing to the unluckier side.

So much for the bads. So whats good about it?

I actually installed the latest Yahoo Messanger and got the MSN Instant Messanger client as well. RIPLEY'S BELIEVE IT OR NOT.

End of semester break

A couple of days ago, me and my family went down to Kuala Lumpur, and the best part of the trip:- Driving

Well, my first driving for some 130Km straight, lol. Ok, I know it means nothing as there's a whole bunch of guys my age or younger out that that does that distance every weekend, but hey, everything has its first time. Thank god we hit the road early and there wasn't any bumper to bumper crawl, but enough vehicals (some taking an evening drive, some well beyond the speed limits, and some test running their car's top speed) to give the real feel of running on a highway, keeping alert all the time while switching lanes and so on. Whats more, it rained heavily on our way back, thus give the experience of driving in such condition at 100Kmph (only, some might say, but I have the life of my family in my hands for goodness sake >.<). So all in all, the experience was a complete package, minus the traffic jam in this overpopulated city. (But heck, traffic jam requires patiens, not experience )

Hmm. At this time of the year, my parents wouldn't have much cash left to splash out on new clothes, heh. I was suppose to get a new shoe anyway, but what's ironic, the mall was bigger than I can ever cover all in a day, and yet I couldn't find one that I was looking for (But there were lots of nice shirt, except that they weren't on my shooping list). Well, I did found one, but it was way too large for me, and they doesn't have a proper size that fits me. There goes that nice shoe

But anyway, we drop by at the Aquaria (an marine life exhibition). It was damn crowded on that day and needless to say, there was countless bad experience with all this public. Some seems like they are camping infront of a particular aquarium, and some decide to walk instead of using the moving platform going through the largest aquarium there (simulating a ocean environment with real shark (small though) swimming around. Ah, peoples, I'll never understand them.

Camera flashes were strictly prohibited, so I took most of the picture with my handphone cam, but needless to say, they quality were stoneage-like. But anyway, these are just the picture taken from the large "ocean" aquarium.







Uh, those quality sucks big time. Added with all the light reflection, its really bad, lol.
This was the best I found. Its a small aquarium though.



ps: With this post, this is what my semester break is all about.