All done and dusted...

...well, almost.

Finally did the course registration. And well, this time around was the toughest one I ever had, with so many decisions to make, and hell the night before, i could swear at one moment, everything was so bad I wished i didnt had to do all this. Finally, came to a decision that, at least for now I'm kinda satisfied with it. I just hope it'll be the best for me.

This sem is almost coming to an end. Finals will be a nightmare, as it always was. But looking back at this short sem, it was better than I hope it'd be. And while I;m in all of this, time flies. It feels like it was just yesterday that I actually blog out some finals thoughts as the semester draws to an end, and here I am, time for another closing thoughs, lolz. And yeah, back then, i never thought things would be better than I dare to think of, back then.

Hmm...guess thats all to spill out for now...

Oh, tomorrow my brother will be starting his driving lesson. Guess soon his gonna inherit my car, heh.

Jingle bell Jungle bell What a lonely spell

A far cry from last year, this year xmas was spend at home, heh. Erm, I don't celebrate it but heck this was the opportunity everyone goes out there and celebrate the hell outta it.

Ah, anyway sitting at home means nothing much to talk about it....erm, nothing at all, isn't it. lolz

here's my xmas wish to everyone



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Uh, that's my in-game character. Don't ask me why its a female character, its a long story. I do have male character, but they cant afford those decoration XD

Happy holiday everyone

Perfect Situation

What's the deal with my brain?
Why am I so obviously insane?
In a perfect situation
I let love down the drain.
There's the pitch, slow and straight.
All I have to do is swing
and I'm the hero, but I'm the zero.

Hungry nights, once again
Now it's getting unbelievable.
'Cause I could not have it better,
But I just can't get no play
From the girls, all around
As they search the night for someone to hold onto.
I just pass through...

singing...
Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhh oohh.
Singing...
Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhh oohh.

Get your hands off the girl,
Can't you see that she belongs to me?
And I don't appreciate this excess company.
Though I can't satisfy all the needs she has
And so she starts to wander...
Can you blame her?

singing...
Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhh oohh.
Singing...
Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhh oohh.

Tell me there's a logic out there.
Leading me to better prepare
For the day that something really special might come.
Tell me there's some hope for me.
I don't wanna be lonely
For the rest of my days on the earth.

Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh.
Singing...
Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhh Oohh.
Singing...
Ooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

A new single by Weezer. I don't really hear much from this band, only once a long time ago, but now these guys are all so mature. Oh well, thanks to HitzFM for playing this song over the radio on the right time when I'm listening to it (I only listent to the radio when I'm driving, so that amounts to pretty rare.) I search for it immediately after i went home. This song is just great, especially the intro lead guitar. It's just perfect.

Now I'm playing this song like 3 times a day, heh. But its good for a change now that I've been listening to some same song over the pass few weeks.

Nostalgia

Hmm, lately I've been listening to some great old songs. Well, that's thanks to DC++ P2P software, where I've manage to connect to a hub base in United States. Thus, its easy to get all this old songs. Deep Blue Something's Breakfast At Tiffany and Bryan Adam's Back To You are some of the many good ol song that I've heard at the once was radio station Classic Rock. It was all so long ago, almost 6 years ago I'd say.

All this old songs, somehow have some bits and pieces of memory attach to it. Those times back in high school, when I was 13 and naive, life back then was all so different. I don't have the internet, TV and radio was my best entertainment. I use to spend hours on the radio alone, and yeah, I grew up with all this songs.

Speaking of life back then, yeah it was a different world. I'm not a very socially active guy, but it never bother me at all. I never ever spend my time wondering how do i fix things, I just live for the day, and somehow I made it through that 5 long years. I use to have 2 good friends back then, ironically both of different race. One's an Indian and the other a Malay. So, i guess that kinda makes us some unique friends, heh.

But heck with it, what made them unique was that...well, back then I was the very same guy as I am now, a very quite one, very boring in fact, and that was evident as I only have 'em both as my close friend. But in both of them was a friend that, well, became my close friend for like, 7 or 8 long years. Yeah, 8 damn long years, without any hardtry. I never try I never pretend, I just be myself, the very guy you'd be embarrass to introduce to your friend. And there I have 2 friend for 8 god damn long years, I'm still amaze by it till this day. We all went our own ways after high school, and I last seen them since god knows when.

Ah, those were the good ol days. It all seems so far now that I sometimes wonder what went wrong somewhere along the way. I've always thought I had change, for the better, but looking at my life now, I'm not too sure if it was for the better. Perhaps I did change, it just wasn't enough. But one thing for sure is that, now that I ain't the same, if I ever get to live those days again, it would've been much better.

But well, those are just some of the good ol memories thats valuable, as they are the only ones that's worth reminiscencing. Nothing to learn from, nothing to frown about, but just a fair weather smile.

Can't remember the last time I spam here.

Well, mid term exams all so yesterday. And so is my luck. I once came out with a theory thought stating that "GOOD THINGS DOESN'T LAST". And once again i was proven correct.

Last weekend, my local ISP did an server maintainence for almost a day, and when my broadband came back, I find that the line bandwidth has been capped to the speed it should be. Ok, that's normal, but before this, the line was actually uncapped, and my spead was unleash to what the ADSL line here are capable of, that is a practical download speed of 140kbps. Oh well, I've been having that for well, its been more than a year. Damn, I'm gonna miss it. Well, it was never meant to last, was it? Since it was a bonus, nothing to complain there I guess.

Story Of A Loney Guy

Push it out, fake a smile
Avert disaster just in time
I need a drink, cause in a while
Worthless answers from friends of mine
It's dumb to ask, cool to ignore
Girls possess me but they're never mine
I made my entrance
Avoided hazards
Checked my engine, I fell behind

She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storms gone I'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move cause I'm a fuckin' boy

Remember when I was in
The grocery store, now's my time
Lost the words, lost the nerve,
Lost the girl, left the line
I would wish upon a star
But that star, it doesn't shine
So read my book, with a boring ending
A short story of a lonely guy

She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storms gone I'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move cause I'm still
Just a stupid, worthless boy

This song just hits home for me. As a matter of fact, it's written in such a way that many guys could actually relates to it, and this is what that makes Blink 182 a very special band. It's like I could find a story of myself in their songs, be it songs about growing up, relationship or matured stuff.

Breath.....breath.......

Finally both midterm paper's screwed up done. Well, as the tradition goes, this semester paper is always the worst among all in my history. PHE took the crown to that title. No thanks for cutting my life shorter by a few years perhaps. But bah, I've seen this coming in my crystal ball.

Can't say that i've struggled so badly that I'm all worn out now, but still I'll take a break that i don't deserve XD. But hmm...what kinda break it is when i have some comp tutorial to do and also a lab report which actually due today to be completed. Meh.

Some quotes of Blink 182

He’s one of those guys like everyday you have to talk to somebody, and like everyday I have to talk to Mark and if I don’t, it’s just not the same day.
-Tom

We’ve tour a lot more, we’ve been to a lot more places. We’ve been lucky with out band, we’ve had success…but we’re still pretty much exactly the same people as we were before. We’re just lame individuals that you’ll be embarrass to introduce your friends to.
-Mark

I wrote the song, specifically about a day, when I was 18 years old sitting in my drive way, when my parents, uh, my whole family broke on that day. I mean one day, it all went down and sadly, it was a really hard time.
-Tom, on the song Stay Together For The Kids

There’s a reason that Tom and I met, you know, we’re pretty much the same guy in two different bodies. I feel like we’re brothers.
-Mark

We’ll just laugh so hard, we make up the stupidest things and when I’m old, I’ll look back at those times just to remember how hard we all laughed.
-Mark

I think about times when we we’re traveling in a van, and we’d make up stupid songs, we’d make up jokes and we were so poor back then we couldn’t even barely afford gas to get to the next venue, but we’re having so much fun just playing music, being in a band and watching our dreams come true.
-Mark

I think it's been an amazing trip here, but I think we're gonna be one of those band's thats around forever and always makes records even if nobody's buying them and being used for toilet paper, but we'll still make them because we'll be the best fuckin' toilet paper anybody ever used.
-Tom

Untitled updates

Well, 4th week into this semester. The pass couple of weeks seems like a woken dream. Will be having a couple of exams next week, and I haven't read a single page of my notes yet. Well, been kinda playful anyway.

Today, I've finally bought the USB infrared bridge that I've wanted to buy since, like 2 months ago. But due to my fucked up attitude, it was delayed till now (only because my brother wanted to get a new computer). But now it's possible to transfere files between my handphone and my computer. I don't have a digital camera, so the handphone VGA camera is pretty much my personal camera now, though its quality is far from satisfactory, but I don't ask for much anwyay.

Till now, the 4th week, weekdays is still pretty much taxing on me. Perhaps thats the reason to why I fell asleep on my notes more oftent than actually reading it.

And that matter still lingers in my mind. I still feels kinda bad about it. Never thought it'd come to this, and I only have myself to blame for. Well, a costly lesson learnt there.

Anyway, here's some pic that I've finally transfered to my comp. It's been resize to 400 pixel horizontally, using bicubic sampling, and nothing more than that.


The view from my room. It was taken late evening, but somehow the sky looks brighter than it should. Well, for a phone this cheap, nothing to complain there.


And this was taken at dawn. It was too dark for the camera.


Another dawn picture, the sky is brighter than it should be, while the foreground is too dark.


Again, a bright sky at dawn.

My Immortal.....The Price To Pay

...
Well, the immidiate consequence is one thing, but its the regrets that follows that will haunt me for a very long time...
...But I guess the immortal regrets is the price to pay to learn a mistake that perhaps, will make me a better person one day. Oh well, nothing comes free.
I'm sorry. Yet again.
This was a strip down version of a short journal I wrote. Well, it's almost meaningless that I don't know why I put it up.

Only God Knows Why

I’ve been sittin’ here tryin’ to find myself
I get behind myself, I need to rewind myself
Lookin’ for the payback, listen for the playback
They say that every man bleeds just like me

I feel like number one, yet I’m last in line
I watch my youngest son and it helps to pass the time
I take to many pills it helps to ease the pain
I made a couple dollar bills, still I feel the same

Everybody knows my name, say it way out loud
A lotta folks fuck with me, it’s hard to hang out in crowds
I guess that’s the price you pay to be some big shot like I am
Outstretched hands and one night stands, still I cant find love
And when your walls come tumblin’ down, I will always be around

People don’t know about the things I say or do
They don’t understand about the shit that I’ve been through
It’s been so long since I’ve been home
I’ve been gone I’ve been gone for way to long

Maybe I forgot all the things I’d miss
Oh somehow I know there’s more to life then this
I said it too many times and I still stand firm
You get what you put in, and people get what deserve
Still I ain’t seen mine no I ain’t seen mine
I’ve been givin’ just ain’t been gettin’ I’ve been walkin back that line
So I think ill keep on walkin with my head held high
Ill keep movin’ on and only God knows why
Only god..
Only God knows why
Only God knows...why why only God knows why
Take it to the river, hey wont you take me to the river...

-Kid Rock

Recently my friend send me a song (thx mate ^_^), well, a Mandrin song.

It sounds very nice, as its a acoustic song. But unfortunetly I don't understand a single word uttered, as, well, I don't use that language, which is pretty much a shame, really. It puts me at a very disadvantage. Sad, but there's nothing I can do about it.

Anyway the song I was talking about was Harlem Yu - Qing Fei De Yi (I don't know which is the title and which is the artist). Well, if u knows it, so thats what i was talking about. If not, well, i don't know what I'm talking about as well.

Sometimes I'm such a idiot.

Friends O' Mine

Well it was ugly but we made it this far
Some have gone but I forget who they are
Now the hangovers are worse but we get through them fine
Sleeping late but were not lazy
Getting older but were still crazy
I’m so glad that I have these friends o' mine
It started out at a coffee shop in a most unlikely town
And there were casualties but we made it out anyhow
We stuck together through the good and bad times
Pulp Fiction, Blazing Saddles, and Fast Times
I’m so glad that I have these friends o' mine

And jobs girls and obstacles did all but break us down
Night clubs and broken vans in every major town
And I’ve got your back, you’ve got mine
Like Johnny Cash said “I walk the line”
And you can always count on me for one last beer

We saw the world and the world seemed smaller
Were getting wider but not getting no taller
I know we’ve grown up just a little lot of time
Were sleeping late but were not lazy
Were getting older but were still crazy
I’m so glad that I have these friends o' mine
So glad that I have these friends o' mine

This one goes out to all the friends I ever had. Well, you guys knows who you are (I hope ^.^!!! ) Though I could count em' by my fingers [what's worst, the ratio of girls to guys are way too low =( ] but at least that makes it easier for me to remember everyone XD
You guys n gals rocks n rules...

Ok, i was joking about that counting with finger part, turns out i had to use my toes as well.

Indefinite hiatus...not, please

Meh, lately I've been running out of stuff that I can post here. At times, I feel like i have to put this blog site into indefinite hiatus. I don't want to.

When I started blogging, all i ever wanted is to keep an simple account of my life, something of which few years down the road, I'd look back at it and see what an ass i've been all this while. (i've stated this in my very first post). But as time passes, it begins to stray away from its purpose due to certain circumstance.

Anyway I guess I've been an emo kid here, but still...I don't know where else i wanna rant it out. Sometimes, I just wanna talk to someone when shit happens, feel like calling up my best friend and just let everything out, but hell, this isn't anyone else fault, I shouldn't be bugging my friends with all those shit that i created in the first place.

So yeah, here became the place where I talk to someone, that is, myself. And it ain't a online dairy anymore.

Great advancement but...

These days, humans are so advance in terms of technology and knowledge that they can actually forsee the future.

Lets see, an asteroid heading towards earth would be detected years before it actually turns earth into pulp. Storms and weather are being studied that it can be forcast when it'll rain, storm or where its heading, how soon and so on. Tsunami and many other geoloogical phenomena can be all predicted before hand.

But back at our own yard, we can't predict our very own life. Suckers.

Anyway, life's so unpredictable, the tides turns in a blink of an eye. And the problem here is that more oftent then never we prepare on a false alarm for something that never will come and next thing we know, we're taken by surprise by something that came without a warning.

Well, if lifes a guessing game, then I guess i must've miss the kick off.