Things I'll Never Say

If I were to be an miserable idiot, I think I'd rather be a self-aware idiot. This way I can tell what am I doing wrong, and least I could do is to avoid it in the future. But I don't, and I'm always blindfolded standing in the dark. I guess, it just kills me to think that I always pull us down when it a new high, and I just... ugh, the feeling's just terrible, horrible, sordid, ludicrous. Gosh...

Well, I keep on looking for ways to overcome this, but to be honest, I'm hopelessly lost at how to comprehend this weakness of mine.

I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it, yeah.

But I'm still an idiot...