Just A Thought

In life, since the day we're born, we get 5 years of carefree, problems free, aimlessly do things that only please us, amuse us.

Then at the age of 5, pre school years starts, which goes on and on, till the day we finish high school, enroll ourself in college or university. All in all, we spend the next 18 years learning stuff where 90% were done unwillingly, but just for the sake of getting a paper printing that we've passed all memory test, making ourself an attractive choice for those cynical coprerate out there looking for the young, exam oriented and underpaid fresh grads. Anyway, yeah, 18 years in academic life.

Then once grad, we spend our entire life dedicated to the rat race, all just to keep food on the table for our wive and children, and an shelter above them. And we'll then get so sick and tired of it that we'll be counting days till retirement and our children finally going out there, leading a life better than what we could offered them, and be glad that our resposibiliy is finally over. And well, waiting for the day we die, heh heh.

Well, I guess we're lucky we do not see, nor understands this during our first five years, else I'm pretty sure we'd all be sort of alarmed by growing up. The moment we step into preschool, there's no looking back anymore, it is such a long long road, decades after decades, before we can finally retire and call it a day bearing all the resposibility. That is if we can live that long.

Sometimes it feels that growing up just isnt what it's all cracked up to be. I watch my dad everyday being the man of the family, and I always though how wonderful it is to be a dad. And I've always thought when I grow up, I will be like him, earning money, affording a house, cars, my toys. But now that I'm old enough to understand all this things, it sometimes scares me that I will have to be an adult one day. I mean, an independent(technically) man, being a dad, the family breadwinner. Suddenly I saw all the responsibility closing in on me, all which will one day sits on my shoulder. Ah well, that's life anyway. The world is always a better place when we're young. As we gets older, it gets uglier.