I keep looking for distraction trying to make myself better, I guess. And so distracted I got that I fails to prepare for my exams. One whole week went through just like that, and there's no end to this. I don't think I realize the consequences of this. Maybe I can spend my entire life in this university studying the same crap over and over again.

As always, I can't fix myself. As usual, it's totally self induce.