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Wow, its been more than 2 weeks since I've posted here. What happened huh. I don't know why it just didn't cross my mind to post anything here. It's like I kept feeling that my thought's such a mess up that putting it here and then seeing this again the next day makes me think of what a disillusioned fool I am.
I don't really know what to say now. I think if I go into the details it's gonna get very long. But lets just say at the end of the day, it all goes down to the very basic fact that, I'm negatively different from other guys when it comes to socializing and everything that relates to it. I mean, its not just how I relate to others, but it's how I interpret all this things. I gets so confuse, so afraid at times too because due to that weakness of mine, I sometimes might not have reacted in the best of ways and I just screw everything up again and again. My confuse mind keeps hoping that good things will last for me just like how it seems to does for others. Changes is inevitable and my dream begs for better changes for us, not the opposite direction.
But wait, is my mind playing tricks on me? Do I see too much of a hope? I can't tell and that's the problem with me. Only thing I'm not confuse about is myself keep holding on to this slight hope that perhaps someday... erm well, let's just leave the sentence there... perhaps someday...
Anyway Chinese New Year is on the way (was it also known as the Lunar New Year?) and well, seems like it gets less and less jolly each year eh. I recall how I use to enjoy it when I was a kid. Now it's just like a routine. Is such celebration something that we will eventually outgrows? Well, what I can only think off right now is collection "ang pau" [value seems to be dropping by the year too =( ] and eat and more eating. How cynical I am huh. But look at how commercialize these festive season as became. Its amazing how consumerism and such celebration mix so harmoniously. Anyway looking forward to this coming holiday.
I'll end this with a quote...
This world's an ugly place
But you're so beautiful of a person to me.
...that I wish I could say.
I don't really know what to say now. I think if I go into the details it's gonna get very long. But lets just say at the end of the day, it all goes down to the very basic fact that, I'm negatively different from other guys when it comes to socializing and everything that relates to it. I mean, its not just how I relate to others, but it's how I interpret all this things. I gets so confuse, so afraid at times too because due to that weakness of mine, I sometimes might not have reacted in the best of ways and I just screw everything up again and again. My confuse mind keeps hoping that good things will last for me just like how it seems to does for others. Changes is inevitable and my dream begs for better changes for us, not the opposite direction.
But wait, is my mind playing tricks on me? Do I see too much of a hope? I can't tell and that's the problem with me. Only thing I'm not confuse about is myself keep holding on to this slight hope that perhaps someday... erm well, let's just leave the sentence there... perhaps someday...
Anyway Chinese New Year is on the way (was it also known as the Lunar New Year?) and well, seems like it gets less and less jolly each year eh. I recall how I use to enjoy it when I was a kid. Now it's just like a routine. Is such celebration something that we will eventually outgrows? Well, what I can only think off right now is collection "ang pau" [value seems to be dropping by the year too =( ] and eat and more eating. How cynical I am huh. But look at how commercialize these festive season as became. Its amazing how consumerism and such celebration mix so harmoniously. Anyway looking forward to this coming holiday.
I'll end this with a quote...
This world's an ugly place
But you're so beautiful of a person to me.
...that I wish I could say.
posted by Garry at 11:27 PM
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