Mellow Boy With The Infinite Sadness

I'm losing my job
I failed at mending my own friendship

I'm falling apart. I'm afraid that I will not be able to hold the pieces together and I'll just crumble to pieces this time.

I still miss you.
Even if I've talk to you, I still do.
I still miss how our friendship used to be back in those years we were in college

I still think about it every day. Maybe sometimes I'll dream of it at night, and I can breath for awhile.

5 minutes of dreaming a make believe of that life is better than being awake in this life ...