My Wish Tonight
If I could have anything in the world tonight, I would like to have one of my closest friend in the whole wide world, and probably the only one left, to forgive me.
Its probably the hardest thing for me, I'm just another insignificant person shrunken by time. But this friendship meant the world to me, more than this person would ever know.
The sad thing is this is probably the reason why things could got this bad. Sometimes when a person meant that much to us, the fear of losing a person out-weights reality and all senses that it becomes the very reason we pushed away that person.
Its one of the worse way for something to turn around like that, to have this person forever hates you and sees you negatively for all the things that you never meant to do. But who am I to have anyone trust me that much? I never was able to be that person to anyone for them to trust me enough to know that I would not have meant to do those things.
That's the problem with me. That is why seeking forgiveness is something almost impossible for me.
Its probably the hardest thing for me, I'm just another insignificant person shrunken by time. But this friendship meant the world to me, more than this person would ever know.
The sad thing is this is probably the reason why things could got this bad. Sometimes when a person meant that much to us, the fear of losing a person out-weights reality and all senses that it becomes the very reason we pushed away that person.
Its one of the worse way for something to turn around like that, to have this person forever hates you and sees you negatively for all the things that you never meant to do. But who am I to have anyone trust me that much? I never was able to be that person to anyone for them to trust me enough to know that I would not have meant to do those things.
That's the problem with me. That is why seeking forgiveness is something almost impossible for me.
posted by Garry at 12:12 AM
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