Less Than Perfect

After all this time, I still ends up feeling like a pathetic loser.

But I only have myself to blame. I guess, being me is to be a person that others will always see in a negative light, its to be this annoying person that should have just fell off the face of this planet.

... I still am this person, despite all efforts to turn things around.



And yes, I do still wonder sometimes how things would be different, had I been more of a normal person, just like everyone else. In that world, I wouldn't have to try so hard and screw up every turn I make.

I'm sorry for who I am...