I wish I could magically make myself perfect, cause it seems like lately the only thing I know how to do is all the wrong thing and back fires on me, or to hurt myself, make a complete fool out of myself, or send everyone scattered running away, or alienate myself, and whatever calamitous things possible.

I don't think anyone's really normal but I just wish I could be a little closer like others generally. I screw up when I tries to be someone I'm not, and I screw up too when I'm myself.

So where does that leaves me? Where ever that is, its certainly a very lonely place.

Guess eventually, even I won't be able to save myself...